catch up.

it's been a while that i've blogged so yup for those who actually takes time to read my blog, here's an update.August was pretty a messed up month for me, mainly cause i've lost a friend then. He was a great friend and a inspiring mentor to me and he will always live in the hearts of many.Rest well my friend, we miss you. And yup i was rather busy with the last major event of my NSF liability, YOG. Had to help out in both the opening and closing ceremonies and i'm really glad to be working with a bunch of dedicated and fun load of ppl.You guys sure made my NS life interesting and unforgettable.Yup august was mainly on YOG and i apologise to those that i've left out amidst my busy times, will sure make it up to u when i have the time.

September came and its almost halfway through, 52more days to hit 4th NOV! (= Can't wait like totally. Yesterday was AHM, ran 10km hmm more like i ran 6km and walked the remaining 4. Haha and my legs hurt, i think my injury was aggravated, got myself a pretty bad cut during Nic's birthday chalet, hope i don't have to do stitches. And yup Nic turned 21 on 9th Sept, Happy Birthday Bro! He's flying to London to further his studies soon and wun be seeing him for at least a yr? So took the time to go to his chalet and catch up with him. Okay back to yesterday, after AHM i went to town with my juniors from Montfort Sec, Marcus and Cam, caught up with them and learnt that Marcus got Golden Bayonet. Awesome! Hahah congrats too! ORD LO! woo! And we watched Step up 3, my second time though and i totally didnt regret it. Yup and we went to shop at TOPMAN in Ion, damn i fell in love with this grey vest immediately and was contemplating whether i should buy or not, but luckily i didnt la cause it was in a pretty bad condition and it's the last piece. Hopefully i will see it again and i will buy it the next time.Alright tonight's shall be my last book in, last four working days before i go off for my off/leave till i ORD. Woo!

Zach
If life could be that predictable.


Incepted dreams..

Last night was crazy, i had a movie marathon just to satisfy my urge to catch up on the movies lately. First was Socerer's Apprentice with my brother and well i thought that the show is pretty good. Nicholas Cage is a suitable person to shoot the show and hes a good actor. Then was Inception with Weisheng, Leonard,Yanyu, Terry and Darren, that show totally pawned my ass. Glad i read the storyline before watching it if not i confirm '*Kangeroo See Spotlight'(Shall explain what this term mean in the later part of the post). Hmm i guess inception is a movie with depth and well scripted. The story plot is just awesome and rather confusing i guess. But fatigue caught the better of me and i fell asleep a while probably dreaming away as well, bet i got incepted. Haha. Reached home at 4plus and went to sleep immediately before waking up for the stupid YOG stuff at the floating platform at 9am! Im so screwed.

This morning i got nagged at again for being a spendthrift, well i only earned a meagre 800plus a month and that gotta cover all my expenses! And please don't compare me to others when you yourself keep mentioning you dun like to compare people! You are just contradicting yourself. You didnt try to understand how i feel and why i'm always out so late into the night. Ask yourself whether you have done anything wrong yourself, if your conscience is clear then i have nothing to say cause i think i know wad you are doing. Wadeva i'm so worn out to care about anything else.

Zach
bring me back to reality.


disintegrating awayy..

Wake up please,the true self of mine who has been hibernating away in my subconscious mind. Stop being someone that you don't want to be.

Zach
split identity.


give no shit no more.

i'm really disappointed like just only. I came back from camp all tired and shagged out, hoping to just have a good meal with my dad and guess what i got. Fucking blaming me for all the shit at home. Power supply bill shot up became my fault when i only go home like twice a week. WTF!? What have i done wrong to deserve this kinda shit? He's always right la and im always at fault, at fault for coming home late everytime when he doesnt even know why i dun wanna stay at home. Fucking hate my life, i wanna seek solace somewhere but i cant seem to find the right person and the right place to pour my troubles to. Damn!

Zach
really on the verge of giving up.


Once upon zach's time...

Woah im back on the blog. Have'nt been updating alot huh guess im kinda losing interest in blogging. But anyway now that i have the extra time which i dunno where to waste it on here goes, another quick update. My life shows escalations and depressions throughout this period, life sucks at times but booms on the other hand so i really dunno wassup with it. Hmm booms as in im definitely nearer to my ORD date 04/11/2010! Woo! Fantasizing about it almost every day but reality slaps me real hard still, 6more months -.- And i have successfully stopped clubbing for weeks haha dunno if thats a good news because that means im clubbing soon again. In the process of rehab i still need to have a break period. All right excuses... Anyway Martin is flying off to Taiwan tonight for his overseas ns trip, wish him bon voyage and all the best there. And also to all those uni peeps taking exams( not referring to you Shiyun cause you somehow "finished" ur exams before the official end date), hang in there cause the difficult times are never yesterday. Jiayou!

Sometimes, i really get emotional about some stuffs well my close friends would know what i had been experiencing. I always got to be the pivot between both sides trying to listen out to them and striking a balance between them, and sometimes it really gets tough and sickening. Hopefully things turn for the better.. Ohh and tmr shall be my greatest fear, gotta IV myself cause im attending some screwed first aid course which aint gonna be applicable in my everyday life in ns. Shit! Anw random stuff, the weather really sucks damn stuffy and hot at night and the problem which my house's air conditioner is giving me isnt helping the situation at all. This week is stay out week, course ends on thursday and friday is an off day! WoO! long long weekend ahead and pay day is this friday! Cant wait. I think powerhouse is calling me and Lady Gaga has been singing in my head: "Stop calling, stop calling, i don't wanna think anymore.." haha that means MTL(Mai Tu Liao = Delay no more) Its powerhouse this sat! Party it out man. And i accomplished Ironman 2 twice -.- and Ip man 2 during the last weekend, totally awesome movies! Gotta chows, watching Queen of No Marriage online.

Zach
Drop your socks, grab your crocs cause its party time!


Home sweet home.

Haven been blogging for a while so now shall have a quick update about what's happening to me. Hmm for the past few weeks life got mundane but as usual i was back to my bad habit of drinking and making merry away. Dad talked to me last sunday and i got really emotional, guess that i really stepped over the limits. Haha how ironic it is, in the past i would tell myself that i will do extreme things to get the attention of my parents cause they were always working when i was young, leaving me in the hands of loneliness. Really hate it, so now i am always not at home and roaming around, but now i kinda regret the life i'm leading right now. Dad is right, drinking will only make me suffer everytime. I gotta kick the habit away and start learning how to reject people when they jio me out the next time.

Well, life in camp got really stressful, theres only 2specs left to look after everybody and it's kinda taxing. Poor yuh chu and i gotta do all the shit and there are always people who don't recognise our hard work and give insensitive comments about us, saying how slack we are. Really can't take the army anymore, wonder when's my turn to ORD. Just 7more months to go but it's so near yet so far away. Next week's gonna be hell week i swear! Oh and i just got a new xbox in my room hopefully that keeps me from heading out too often. And pay just came in, 1,026bucks! Woo! haha thats the only thing that's keeping me going all these while in camp. The allowance on the 10th each month. Gotta think of what to do tmr, afterall weekends i gotta take control of them and really enjoy myself before heading back to camp.

Zach
Just holding on tightly.


understanding one self.

Many people actually dunno about themselves like what they really want in life and with whom they want to be with for a lifetime etc. And i'm one good example so i took a personality test in facebook and i found it very accurate and it made me realise more about myself. Tada!